oh wow someone is interested in me, well uh.. here's a list about me

• I can't tell if people are joking or not so I have to take everything as a joke. Well, that's a lie. I take everything seriously.
• I spend my days doing nothing, listening to music.
• Sometimes I draw.
• Someone said my accent sounds nice, other people said I sound like a kid, I'm annoying, and I should go back to my country. I know the last one is a joke, but oh man does it hurt.
• Someone in 8th grade kept asking if I ate dogs which I kept saying no to, but he kept asking. He was such a comedian repeating the same thing to me, wasn't he?
• I feel so useless from 5th grade when I did an assignment and the group didn't need my help at all. I felt so stupid. Why didn't they want my help? Am I that useless?
• I generally don't like being alive.
• My favorite animal is the cat, because they're cute.
• I honestly wished I was a furry animal to hide the ugly with fur.
• My feelings are dictated by what I listen to.
• i never know how i feel, it sometimes feels like i'm so empty and my emotions are faked
• Don't take anything I say seriously, I don't understand myself or anything around me.
• This website is a cry for help, I'm too afraid to seek therapy so I complain here.
• Maybe the depression I've been feeling in middle school was just anxiety and I was never depressed, that'd honestly make more sense now that I think about it...